Things get better. I succeed my two weeks exams.
Just jocking I'm still feeling treated like a pet, but I get used to. Sometimes I'm not smiling I'm almost laughing. Let's see :
Today when I started to work one of my collegue came with some french foods such as baguettes , rillettes... (most of you are french you should get it) and explained me we were going to have a french lunch.
I was not very hungry...but come on fresh baguette !!!
I was working at the reception, waiting to see if I was going to be invited or not. One of the girl from the reception, Yuki, invite me to join them
Then I heard from the table Hikuko (to sum up Hikuko is Yubaba number 2 or my boss' right hand) saying in japanese :
« No Pauline stays at the reception »
Yuki heard and told me « Oh sorry forget about what I said !»with the most polite smiles that she could do.
So the situation was kind of funny. In the same room I was alone at the reception to answer all the calls, and next to me there were 5 people eating and laughing.
Just stop few minutes...How could I not feel bad !. Of course they want me (or two of them) to feel bad it was so obvious. It was just to remind me what was my place here.
How perfidious ! Because it is this kind of behaviour that reinforces doubts about your skills and about yourself. Of course I knew I didn't do something wrong. On the contrary I answered to each call, I kept doing my research for the institute.
I was just feeling streessfull because I had to answer each call at the reception with my insufficient japanese. And I had to do this « going-coming » trip several time and to interrupt their « private french lunch » to beg someone to help me answering on the phone.
What was the aim?
My opinion is first this prove to every one I was unable to answer on the phone. Second It was a good way to have fun.
To be honest I didn't have fun. More later Jennifer the only french girl working at the school told me in private : « This is completly stupid the idea of let you answering on the phone, it's bad for you and it's also bad for the company »
I keep my mouth quiet, Jennifer is thirty three years old . I wanted to say « This is very nice of you Jennifer but that didn't help. It not at me that you should tell this »
« elle porte de plateaux lourds à ses mains d'enfants »
Next episode ...in process
Anyway (and also because I want to change the subject) My title is refereing to Hayao Miyasaki's fan. (I'm part of them. I mean I'm not a FAN but still). I didn't tell you before, the first day I went to Japan, at my office, when I heard my boss voice for the first time I though « No !!! she as exactly the same voice as Yubaba !!! ».
I'm still astonished by this similarity. Yubaba is a character from « Chihiro » one of the most famous Hayao Miyasaki's film.
Yubaba is a malicious witch who runs with a iron hand a bathing place.
What is interesting Yubaba as a twin another witch who is amost her opposite...how ironic !
And please don't tell me I'm like Chihiro !